Saturday, September 24, 2005


i have had a surprising number of emails asking about 'o' lately- does he read this site? does he know how i feel about him? what is his side of the story? why am i still hanging around with him after almost three years? how do i feel about thais now?

well, relationships are much more complex than you would like them to be. i could give simple answers to those questions, but they would be wrong answers when everything is taken into account... and since people like to rape and pillage my blog and turn it into an entirely new drama (of late) i feel it's unfair to 'o' to be as open about that as i'd like to be.

no, 'o' does not read my site (though he knows about it and is welcome to), but he knows exactly how i feel about him at any given time, despite that fact. i am very open- sometimes unfortunately (sometimes not!).

how do i feel about him? that's for me to know and you to find out.


Sangroncito said...

We can only find out (sangroncito says respectfully)....if you tell us! Not that I in particular would question your relationship with "O", since I have a similar complex relationship with "E" in Salvador (Brazil)....and I understand very well that for many of our "compatriots" our relationships with someone from a different culture, especially when it is occuring in their own land, is difficult to impossible to I, for one, would never judge your reasons or feelings...your relationship with "O" is complex, contradictory, exasperating and fulfilling, I imagine.

1:59 PM  
elocin x said...

thanks, that's a very perceptive obcservation, but not one i am likely to get from the average reader.

suffice it to say with 'o', our love/hate relationship has evolved into a friendship, as it should have been in the first place. i don't believe either he or i feel any regret at the efforts we have put into each other or the time we have spent together. i can't ask for anything more than that!

6:57 PM  

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