Saturday, July 22, 2006

diao ni

man i do fall behind don't i. sorry for the almost month-long intermission.

parties. more parties than i have ever been interested in going to in my life previous have happened to me recently. a party where dum lek wanted to kiss me (so i won our little game "touch dum" for the day- good for the ol' ego that one) and parties where boys were slobbering lunatics, alternately fighting with beer bottles and sobbing hopelessly over the recent girlfriend, parties with happy people who like to dance in the dark, parties falling in and out of love with people, parties with sunrises!!! so many that i've felt like i was spinning. playing tag team with people on the rest of the island- starting to know it well, such nice days... some aspects of that i obviously don't write about (here). so not been much to say.

i am torn between going back home to NY (by choice for once!) and taking a 3 month contract for some extra backup (hmmm alarm clocks, stiff meetings, subway trips staring at shoes, $100 dinners,loneliness amongst every kind of people, food, films, shopping, music, and art) vs. staying here and continuing to get certified in tantra yoga (2 hours a day with my indian teacher feels yummy), making flyers and working the cozy party at my strange friend's bar, hanging out with my love-bestowing dogs (chasing down rats in the corners), and juggling whatever good work i can manage for far flung people during monsoon season. (hrmmm).

do you have to do time for your happiness?

the famous dao and the lovely malee (mae mort sam khon)

my friends are lovely. sometimes a bit trying (which makes me love them more), but for once i have girl friends (mostly english). i miss boy friends but you can't have them here- you are either fucking or not (sigh). the americans popping up bother me. i never noticed to what extent americans are boring until i started hanging out with europeans. what self-obsessed, control-requiring, tedious blabbering idiots i have met (along with one or two cool ones). our country is far too analytical. we don't have balance. everyone needs to take a deep breath and relax their sphincters. laugh a little.

do yoga

... hi michelle, your kids are cute and your life strange...

everyone be good.


Harry Balls said...


I'd recommend that you take this opportunity to work in NYC and add another year to your social security credits. You need only 10 years of credits, and at age 30, you probably ALMOST, but not quite, have the required 10 years.

Per year, the minimum wages that get the full year credited for social security is something ridiculously low as 4 grand (look it up on the website).
In our profession, this means you need to work for a mere 2 weeks to get the full year credited towards social security eligibility.

Then, from age 62 or 65, with, say, 1 grand in social security payments per month, you can live quite comfortably in Thailand.

Sometimes in life you have to "suck it up", and now is the time. Collect your 10 years.

-Harry B.

12:46 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home